I have returned from my trip feeling refreshed in body and soul. My obsession with baby making has vanished and I feel like I've got my old life back. My husband and I rediscovered our love for one another and are stronger than ever. I can tell I'll have no problem pushing all this IF madness to the back of my mind and just enjoying life! I'm so looking forward to an awesome summer filled with fun and productivity!
Psyyyyyyyyyyyyych. Did I fool 'ya? Were you like, Woah, I can't believe that worked? Did you google cheap flight Pittsburgh?
In reality, of course, this New Era bullshit never works for me and I know it. (Which is not to say it's bullshit for everyone, or that it won't work for you--I'm just special.) The psychological switch has remained unflipped. I was stabbed in the heart when I saw pregnant women all weekend, when I watched BFB with her baby yesterday, when I thought about never having a child (every eight minutes).
Still, it was a moderately good weekend. We both got nasty colds on Thursday, so were hardly in top form. But we played through the pain--lying around in our hotel room, exploring a little, dining out. If you find yourself in Pittsburgh and in need of some contemporary American cuisine, E.leven is afuckingmazing. The vegetarian tasting menu was sublime. My husband had the normal chef's tasting menu, and that was also rockin'.
I am at least finding that I'm not really impatient. Summer always goes too quickly for academics, so I'm finding that my eagerness to have it be August is strongly balanced by my desire to have it be June for a million, billion, trillion years.
Of course...I can't help noting that this is the halfway point for my recovery. Six weeks (more or less) before I get to see that first exciting negative pregnancy test!