One of the great luxuries of my life is that I get to walk to work. This might not seem like a luxury when you consider the waist deep snow and icy winds, but I love it. The walk means I get exercise every day, even when I am not allowed to work out due to my slightly enlarged ovaries. I also have some time when I can think sans distractions. Some days I can even appreciate the beauty of the natural world around me. Here are some of the things I saw this morning.
I love the effect of snow on branches.
Tiniest and most perfect footprints ever!
Good one, universe! You're SO FUCKING FUNNY. And I particularly appreciate the way the sheet just happens to be folded so the NOT PREGNANT is extremely prominent. Like I needed a reminder. *Sobs convulsively* This bit o' trash was right in the middle of the sidewalk, as though it had been placed there just for me. I picked it up and stuffed it under some ivy, 'cause there ain't no way I'm going to confront that every damn day.
So, about my ovaries. I did call the clinic yesterday as you all recommended. I asked the nurse whether ovulation ever occurs when follicles are still too small, but all she would say was, It's possible--don't want to say never. I asked whether the LH surge my monitor detected was real, and she seemed to think it was, and that I'd missed my chance. This seemed weird to me, since normally they do the insemination 36 hours after the trigger, and it had only been about 30 or so. I expected her to say we could do it this morning. But no. So I didn't get my questions answered, and I didn't really feel like pressing. After this morning's scan they took some blood and will call if I have indeed ovulated. It's so hard to trust the clinic. I know they are wise and experienced, but when they give me inconsistent information (ovulation 24 hours after LH surge? ovulation 36 hours after trigger?) I become confused and anxious. And they scheduled me to trigger on Wednesday night and come in for the insemination on Saturday. That has got to be a mistake! And I will most certainly confirm if they don't end up calling and telling me it's too late anyway. BLECH!