Friday, November 5, 2010

Fetus A-Okay, and...Viking Rune Candle Lady Baby

This is the kind of post that used to make me bawl with sorrow and desperation, just a few months ago. I'd read it because I cared about the person, but I'd know I'd better close my office door and get out the tissues. I'd sob and sob, and then I'd recover. Now it's my turn to break your little hearts! Sweeeeet! No, for serious, you don't have to read this. I'll never know.

This morning was my NT scan, or ultrascreen, as the kids say. That shit was pretty mind blowing. First, we got to go to the classy ultrasound room, the one with a big screen and a vastly less clinical feeling. Second, the tech told me to sit down on the table. I was like, with my CLOTHES ON? I mean, dude, I didn't even have to take my SHOES off! It felt a lot like walking into the living room of someone who selected all white carpeting. Then I had an ultrasound FROM THE OUTSIDE. Like in the movies. And then I got to see my fetus. There's one little picture on Bun Bun's page, but I wish I could keep the memory of the experience crystal clear. All these little bits of amazing anatomy flashing by... Spine! Hands! Feet! Cerebellum! Heart! Little beating heart! I have to say the part that really got me was an axial view of Bun Bun's brain. TWO hemispheres, people. And plenty of room for the frontal lobes to expand. I really wish I'd gotten a keepsake picture of that, but I'll just have to treasure the memory. Anyway, all extremities present, heart beating away at a great rate, measurements perfect. I won't know for a week or more what the test results are, but my plan is to not worry. And we all know plans work flawlessly.

But on to part two. The Viking Rune Candle Family is in town this week and came over for dinner last night. I got to meet Viking Rune Candle Lady Baby. (I know, he'll get no end of shit at school for THAT name.) Because I have so few friends with babies (one), it was awfully nice to just fucking talk about babies with someone with whom I have ZERO baggage. She also told me that her life has pretty much transformed from sad to happy. How she used to just drag herself through the days, and now every day is a fucking treasure. Yeah, I puked a little, too, but if anyone is in a place where she'd be able to draw comfort from an RPL success story, there you have it.

20 comments:

  1. yaaay bunny!!! glad you got to see the little munchkin again and i'm *sure* that all the test results will come back a-okay. do you have the 2nd trimester glow yet?? or still feeling a little sicky?? i'm so happy for you that everything is progressing perfectly :o) xoxo.

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  2. Yipee!!!!!glad the NT scan went well--that's a big milestone and doesn't it feel nice to talk about babies like a normal person? I still can't get used to it but it's still fun to try.

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  3. I am so happy for you an bun bun, I promise I mean that regardless of what I am posting about this week. This is a huge hurtle that you passed through today :)

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  4. I'm so happy!! That is awesome. I found the whole fancy ultrasound at 11 weeks (which they did right before they stuck a monster needle into my abdomen) to be super wonderful -- there were so many details to see!

    And keeping the pants on? Beyond bizarre. I may never shave my legs again (really, it was only for the RE and my pride). Congratulations on making it to this next step!!

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  5. Haha, I've heard those ultrasounds exist, but I'll believe it when I see it myself :).

    Congrats on the excellent scan!

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  6. Wow, Bunny. I am just so thrilled for you! Everything is going well, just as you deserve. Isn't it strange to be on the side of happiness and things going well? It seems like it might be a cosmic joke, but it ISN'T. I'm so pleased for you. And for me. And hopeful for so many others...

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  7. I love how much of a nerd you are. 2 hemispheres, hey! That's fantastic. And room for the frontal lobes. She or he will need that, especially at school.

    Great news bunny. So glad your appointment went well and that you got to see bun bun. I'm really happy for you.

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  8. So happy for you and a thriving bun bun!!

    We got a quick glimpse of the brain at the scan yesterday, too, with two hemispheres and all, and it was crazy. amazing. how is that little thing growing inside of me? Crazy awesome.

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  9. Seeing the baby! And with an ON THE OUTSIDE LIKE IN THE MOVIES ultrasound to boot!

    Awesome.

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  10. I know! Isn't it shockingly civilized to just sprawl on the clinical la-z-boy with your pants on?

    Loving this milestone, and laughing out loud at your comments about Viking Rune Candle lady. I know you know this, but you're freakin' hilarious!

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  11. Oh that is fantastic news Bunny.Incredible about the brain. Well done Bun Bun -I hope you continue to be so well-behaved well into your teenage years. I'm sure your test results will be fine.

    As for Viking Candle Lady, that is fantastic. Firstly, that you cant alk to someone about babies. And two, thaat she had success and is now happy. Okay, her sentence might have made you puke, but from someone who suffers from that condition, I can envisage one thousand per cent how she must be feeling right now.

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  12. An ultrasound on the outside sounds like heaven as does the rest of it. I am very happy for you!

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  13. An ultrasound with clothing on.

    You are a kinky little vixen, aren't you?

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  14. Thanks for the Viking Rune Candle Lady update - I DO like those stories. I file them away in my head and when things feel especially bleak I take them out and think about them.

    And you have graduated from the vag cam!! God, it's a state of which I can only dream but I'm very glad that you and Bun Bun have reached it.

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  15. I decided to take your advice and read this one at home and not at the office. Surprise no tears. Just feelings of joy for you. That is an awesome experience and I am happy that you got to experience it.

    That is really cool that you got to meet Viking Ryne Candle Lady. Sweet.

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  16. Glad to hear that Bun Bun is A-OK!! That is great news. Congrats on a good NT scan. And congrats on no more dildo cam! :)

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  17. An u/s with your clothes ON? You really are all grown up now Bunny. That is a huge milestone. It must make you feel like one of the normal pregnant woman, surely? And fabulous news that bun bun is still thriving.

    I love viking rune pregnant lady. I love that she is able to leave her crap behind her and just embrace her pregnancy. She definitely deserves those feelings, and it's nice to know it is possible to feel whole again after all that pain.

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  18. Whoo hoo for a good NT scan! What a relief, huh?

    I thought I was done with the dildo cam...but alas with twins you get twice monthly wanding sessions for the cervix stuff.

    Anyway, congrats on a healthy Bun-Bun!

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  19. In my urgency to get a little more freak in before my transfer, I booked through this post and did not honor the sheer awesomeness that the initial NT scan looks good.

    I think you will take great comfort in the numbers they send you later - the ratio is similar to that of you flossing. That is what triggered my brain I failed to celebrate a pretty phenomenal thing.

    Bun bun: feel the love.

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  20. Oh wow - I'm so happy for you!!!

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